As many of you know, I have begun using weight watchers again to drop some pounds for the wedding! My biggest struggle with W.W is tracking my dinners. It is winter and chilly so I want hearty meals all… the… time. I’ll track breakfast and lunch and any snack I pack or make that day but when it comes to dinner I just can’t do because I’m ashamed at how much I eat and the type of food I’m eating. If I don’t track it, it doesn’t count right? WRONG.. every little bit counts, from the chocolate chips I am eating while typing this post, to the Lipton Ice Tea I had with Lunch. There are a few things in the beginning that I don’t normally track like dressings, condiments and seasonings. As soon as you hit you’re plateau those types of things count. Which sucks.
I have done weight watchers 2xs before, and everytime I hit my target weight, I quit. I think that i’ve lost the weight and I get happy and cocky and think the weight is gone forever. WRONG. I’ve battled with my weight my whole life. I wasn’t “Fat” growing up or “Obese” but I tried to conform to society’s standard of “Pretty” and “Hott”. Lets face it, every preteen/high schooler wants to be “Hott” “Sexy” or “Gorgeous”. Instead of trying to fit the mold, I am trying to feel better about myself. I am happier when I am 20lbs lighter then what I am now, I do feel better and look better, I smile more and just flat out feel prettier.
The first time I joined weight watchers, I joined to help my mom. I was 21 almost 22 and thought I had a few pounds to loose and with my mom by my side, what the heck. So mom and I would help each other along the way, and make dinner together and have lunch together and we would help each other stay on track. I hit my goal and quit tracking… my mom however went on to loose 50+ lbs and is a weight watcher for life.
The second time I joined, I’d been living with my fiance for 5 months and we ate out a lot. Its easier when you’re tired and on the go. Well I’d hit my all time heaviest at 175 not fitting into any of my clothes and I couldn’t stand looking at myself in the mirror. Once again, I hit a good patch and it was summer, so all we did was drink beer and eat out. This time, I worked with people who worked out all the time, were gluten free, vegan or even vegetarians. I was never happy, I’d cry all the time because I looked rolly.
This time, I am fluctuating between 170 and 165, I have a wedding in 9 months, and I want to feel better and happier about myself. Heres to a start to a new journey!